Belakangan ini gue lagi dihinggapi ke-dilema-an (is that even a word?hee) yang sangat.
Akan mudah kalo pilihan gue is BAD or GOOD.
But what if, both of my options are GOOD..?
I can't decide which one is BETTER for me.
What I chose today will affect myself in 5, 10, or even 50 years later (insyaAllah kalo ada umur panjang,Amien), seperti kalo kita memilih makan--let's say-- nasi bebek persahabatan (itu loh,yang didepan R.S Persahabatan Rawamangun,yang pedues gila itu..masa gak tau sih?ENDES BAMBANG PEDES NENDANG), padahal lo tau tu nasi bebek pedes gila, lo aware akan resikonya, sakit perut (kalo yang punya maag berarti cari masalah) karena perut lo gak tahan pedesnya, tapi lo menikmati semua proses itu. Mulai dari beli Nasi Bebek untuk dibawa pulang, sampe rumah lo buka bungkusannya, menikmati bibir lo kebakar, menikmati rasanya yang udah pasti enak, menikmati air dingin yang masuk ke tenggorokan untuk menghilangkan pedasnya, sampai akhirnya lo sakit perut, dan --ehem-- pup.
Nah, gue mau apa yang gue pilih bakal gue nikmatin kayak gitu,
Sakitnya (kepedesan)..
Pedihnya (bibir kebakar)..
dan..senengnya (pup)..
Sebetulnya, gue gak mau jadi orang yang memilih sesuatu karena the option is better than the other, that will make me look like Uncle Scrooge, hehe.
Here's the thing, MUNGKIN gue tau mana yang lebih bisa dengan mudah gue jalanin, pilihan yang lebih bagus, yang gak perlu effort lebih besar, yang mudah. Mudah dan jadi lebih baik. Easy.
Tapi, by choosing it, i know life less than i know life by choosing 'the hard one'. (stop ngebingungin orang dong ti!?)
Well, oke, let's say gue udah nentuin pilihan gue (makan nasi bebek). What next?
After i chose my choose, i have to be commited to it.
That is, the true challenge.
Who said that life is all about choosing?
For me, life is about commitment.
As Meredith Grey said,
"There are times when even the best of us have trouble with commitment, and we may be surprised at the commitments we're willing to let slip out of our grasp. Commitments are complicated. We may surprise ourselves by the commitments we're willing to make. True commitment, takes effort, and sacrifice. Which is why sometimes, we have to learn the hard way, to choose our commitments very carefully."
